Long before I found, I thought that once I find I will search no more... And so I thought.
Almost a year has passed by since all the miracles took place, and my first life changing encounters with the Heavenly Father had occurred.
Since I left Winnipeg to move to British Columbia, I've witnessed the heavenly goodness of my Splendor Jesus in our lives. Our move took Huge adjustments for my family, yet I struggle with one thing.
My family lately has been watching a lot of online preaching. Surely my family is becoming like the on fire Godly household I've been praying them to be. But why is it, I feel so left out?
Its like an ongoing battle that I keep facing and facing again and again.
I miss the girl who I found myself to be in Christ. Where is she? I know she's still here.
The girl who proclaimed the whole world in boldness, who her God is. But now why all of the sudden she's afraid of what others may think.
I never thought i'd ever feel so lost again.
My Father Jesus, I don't know how to express my feelings, but through writing.
But I know that your The God of Truth, and in your word captives are set free. That nothing can separate me from your love. That you are my Father and my Redeemer lives. That you God is my Shepherd, and my stronghold. That you are faithfully good. That my God is for me, so who can ever stand against.
That I am not condemned, but forgiven and cleansed by the Blood of Jesus Christ.
That no matter how bad I fail, I will never be defeated because my Jesus has Won it all for me. That your Grace covers it all. Thank you Lord that your Love never ceases, that because of you I Am Forever FOUND.
I am the CHILD OF THE MOST HIGH GOD.
There are times when life just get so hard, and sometimes you begin to pull away from God and forget. Please don't. I want you to know you are not alone. As the Children and Victors of Christ we are made to be more than conquerors in every trial and obstacle. That no matter what situation it is, whether you did something wrong or something went wrong, Christ still restores and is full of Grace. You are forgiven. You are set free. All what Papa wants is to have you back in His arms and reveal to you His heart full with love and compassion for you.
God's plan for you are good and they're not for evil. They are plans to prosper and to give you hope and a future.
No matter what happens You are still the Child of the most High, and God loves you so much! So do not back away anymore, instead stand strong and get to know Him more and more. And surely God blesses those who seeks Him.
God Bless.
