The world just gets busy, and busier. Time this days, feels like its passing by too fast.
I grew up in a simple Christian home. My parents raised me to love God, and grow up to have strong faith in Him. We went to Church every Sunday, My dad would tell me stories from the Bible and etc. Because of this and always hearing about God, a seed of faith has been planted in my heart.
In the age of 5, is when I have accepted the Lord, as my personal Lord and Savior. Like Samuel in the Bible, I heard the voice of the Lord in an early age. I also would always hear people's testimonies about their deep relationship with the Lord, and how they're being used in His kingdom and doing great things for Him. I always knew deep in my heart, that i was special in the eyes of the Lord, and that He has a special plan for me, and someday i will also encounter His love deeply. I don't know why but for some reason i just knew that. Until today, I can never see myself, spending my entire life just being an ordinary Christian. I want to live, in the best plans God has for me. I always know that He has a will for me, and I am chosen.
In the age of 9, My family and I moved to Canada. It was a huge adjustment for us. It was a blessing and an opportunity for a better future for my sister and I. Everything was great, and i looked up to this blessing so much, that i looked down to everything else i had. I wanted to forget where i came from, and who i was. I became blind, and I actually started to look down at my parents. I wanted to fit in so badly, i wanted to be a whole new different person.
I remember always wanting to be popular, so i hanged out with the popular kids. Looking back now, i think its really dumb. So i tried to change myself and be like them. I started changing the way i look, i dressed, i act, and speak . I was living in the ways of the world.
For a couple of years, my relationship with the Lord, went downhill. It felt like i was sleeping and forgetting who He really is in my life...
I remember always fighting with my family members. I thought something was wrong with them, but i didn't realize, its all me. I remember sometimes looking myself in the mirror, and questioning who am I? what am I ? why am I, here? why am I existing? i would cry, and wonder.. Has God completely forgotten about me? Life became meaningless...
In grade 7 is when things started to slowly shift, until the year next to that...
It was like the Lord has slowly been calling me. I grew a thirst for the love of the Lord. I was empty in the inside, and heavy laden. I still thank God today, that i never have gotten to a point of serious trouble, when i felt the furthest from Him, He has always been protecting me from danger, and to a point where He would completely lose sight of me. I was offered drugs a couple of times, and I would always feel His awareness in me, and He would speak to me when I'm about to walk in danger. This usually happens with Guys.. specially when they want something "else'' from me.
Until i became tired, tired of keeping up with everyone else, pleasing people, changing myself. I hated to see, my parents disappointed and hurt by my actions. I wanted a change, i wanted peace, i wanted fulfillment. I knew this can only be done through Christ. At first i struggled in taking the first steps, in just calling out to God. I wanted things to change immediately, but sometimes things doesn't work that way. I needed to be patient, and wait on God's right and perfect time, for things to fit in perfectly in His plan.
I remember always listening to songs and famous artist, like Katy Perry, Adele, Justin Bieber etc. I also remember hearing the quote that says "YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT". That is so very true. I know this because I've experienced it myself. I fed myself with the muchness of the world, so i became that. Until one week, when i just really started listening to Gospel songs, Christian songs, Hillsongs, etc. And it had build up my hunger in seeking for the Lord. Until i started to crave for the word of God, I started to listen to as much preachings i could possible, online. I just filled myself with God. (Romans 10:17) "FAITH COMES BY HEARING". Until then, God transformed me.
I was soaking even before i didn't even know soaking existed, i was worshiping, i was just loving God. I wanted more, and more and more of Him. I have never encountered His love so strongly, than ever before. I would just close the door, and talk to Him, where ever i felt the closest to Him.
The way He loves you is so Amazing! No words can ever describe the Greatest Love I've ever received. You will never know how good this love is, if you have never experienced His love. And when you do, YOU WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN!
I noticed that in these days, in this generation many teen Christians have been so caught up with the muchness and business of the world. Many has been hearing about Jesus, but never really has been embracing the love that's been waiting on for you to just grab on! And i want you, yes you! who ever is reading this to experience the Love that God has showed me, and given me.
Through His Love, He gave me back my "identity" that the world had once taken off my hands, but this time my identity is now defined through Jesus Christ living in me.
I am here today, to share my testimony. Because "Every test, becomes a testimony". If you have known and already received Jesus as your personal Lord and savior, but has not yet encountered the full extent of His love. I have to say, you're missing out. The key to just receiving this Greater Love, is to have a "seeking heart", and have a "willing heart" to surrender everything to Him, and always be aware of His voice. Make sure you give time to Him, even if its just 10-20 mins a day. Let this be a lifestyle. At first, for me it was really difficult... but once you enter into His presence, you completely forget time and everything else around you, And it is so worth it! I remember reading a quote off, of Emanuella's blog "If Satan can't make you sin, then he will make you busy".
When you talk, speak, pray, or worship Him... remember He looks at our hearts. If you are heavy laden, surrender and cry out to Him. Then He may give your soul peace and rest.
I would be the type of person who'd be needing a therapist. But a therapist would be useless, because who needs a therapist when you got Jesus..He is someone who's there waiting for you 24/7, and plus He wont be taking money off your pocket.
Last week, while spending time with the Lord, He rewind back to the time when i was little, through a vision. I saw Him just watching me with delight in His eyes while I was playing alone. I heard Him say " Someday you will live according to my purpose that i have for you, and you will encounter, my love like never before. That day is set".
Now i know, why I always knew, when i was little.. That someday, i will walk in His planned purpose in my life, and i will encounter His love deeply. Is because, all along He has been already declaring that over my life. We are the chosen ones of the Lord God. He died on the cross, so someday He may gain our love. So let us be the fruit of the Cross.
In receiving the fullness of the Love of the Father,that is waiting to lavish on you.. You will need stop saying "Someday", "later" etc.. But instead it is all about RIGHT NOW! Right now, is when you will start seeking, and learning more about God. Spend time with Him.
He has the greatest affection towards us, His children. He is so excited, in getting you on board in your adventure with Him, in revealing you, how much He loves you. The question is.. will you climb on board? He has a purpose for every each and individual. But we have to say "yes" to be chosen..
when you are just walking in love with the Lord, you cannot imagine of the great things He will do in your life.
Thank you for reading...
I pray that you will encounter His love, strongly than ever before... :)
God bless you!
